"Confronting Desires"

Shizuo couldn't shake off the feeling of unease that settled in his stomach as he stood under the warm water, trying to wash away the soap and the sensations that Vanitas had stirred up in him. He hated the fact that he had felt so good when Vanitas massaged him, hated that his body had responded to Vanitas' touch in such a way. It made him feel weak, made him feel like he was losing control. As the water continued to pour down on him, Shizuo felt a sense of frustration building up inside him. He didn't know how to deal with these feelings, didn't know how to process the emotions that were swirling inside him. All he knew was that he needed to get out of there, needed to get away from Vanitas and his infuriatingly gentle touch. But it was too late. Vanitas had already turned off the water and was now grabbing Shizuo, pulling him into a warm towel that enveloped him in a cozy warmth. Shizuo felt a shiver run down his spine as Vanitas dried him off, his hands moving gently over his skin. As Vanitas finished drying him off, he picked Shizuo up and carried him to his bed, laying him down on the soft sheets. Shizuo felt a sense of panic building up inside him as Vanitas started to kiss him on his neck, his lips tracing gentle patterns on his skin. But Shizuo couldn't take it anymore. He pushed Vanitas away, his hands flat against his chest. "Wait, I am the bottom?" he asked, his voice laced with panic. Vanitas smiled, his eyes sparkling with amusement. He leaned in, his lips brushing against Shizuo's. "Yes, love," he whispered, his voice husky with desire. "Now spread your legs." Shizuo's eyes widened in horror as he realized what Vanitas was suggesting. "We are men," he protested, his voice rising in anger. "I can't have sex with you." But as he looked up at Vanitas, he saw something that made his heart skip a beat. Vanitas' dick was huge, and Shizuo felt a shiver run down his spine as he thought about trying to take it. Damn, his dick is big, Shizuo thought, his mind racing with doubts and fears. Vanitas seemed to sense Shizuo's unease, but instead of backing off, he just smiled and quickly got up from the bed. "I need to get the lube, love," he said, his voice happy and excited. "I'll be right back." Shizuo watched as Vanitas rushed out of the room, feeling a mix of emotions swirling inside him. He was scared, he was unsure, but most of all, he was confused. What was he getting himself into? And why did a part of him want to say yes?