Fragile Solace

As I lay in Hange's arms, my body slowly calming from the intense sobs, I found myself slipping back into a childish comfort mechanism. I sucked on my thumb, a habit I thought I'd long outgrown, but in this moment of vulnerability, it was all I could cling to. My eyes, still red and puffy from crying, looked up at Hange, searching for reassurance. Their face, soft and concerned, was a gentle blur as I weakly said, "Please don't leave me." Tears streamed down my face once more, as if my body had an endless supply of them. My voice was barely above a whisper, but the desperation in it was palpable. Hange's expression crumpled, and they pulled me closer, their hold on me tightening. Their voice was a soothing balm to my frazzled nerves, "I won't leave you, I promise. I'm here for you." But I couldn't shake off the fear that had taken hold of me. It was a primal fear, one that made me feel like I was drowning in a sea of uncertainty. I sucked harder on my thumb, the familiar comfort of it a small solace against the overwhelming anxiety that threatened to consume me. Hange's hand gently stroked my hair, their touch a gentle reminder that I wasn't alone. But even as I felt their warmth and comfort, I couldn't help but wonder if they would truly stay. Would they be able to handle the weight of my fears and anxieties, or would they eventually leave me, just like everyone else? As I looked up at Hange, I saw the concern etched on their face, and my heart ached. I knew I was being childish, that I was clinging to them like a lifeline, but I couldn't help it. I was scared, and I didn't know how to be brave anymore. The tears continued to stream down my face, a relentless reminder of my vulnerability. Hange's grip on me tightened, and they whispered, "I'll always be here for you. You're not alone." Their words were a gentle promise, one that I desperately wanted to believe. I sucked on my thumb, feeling a small sense of comfort, and looked up at Hange, my eyes pleading for them to stay. In that moment, I knew I was fragile, that I was barely holding on. But with Hange by my side, I felt a small sense of solace, a fragile comfort that I clung to like a lifeline. I knew it wouldn't last forever, that eventually, I would have to face my fears and anxieties head-on. But for now, I just wanted to hold on to Hange, to their warmth and comfort, and to the promise that they wouldn't leave me.