"Regressing into Darkness"

I whimpered, my eyes wide with terror as I clutched my favorite baby toy, Mr. Whiskers, tightly to my chest. My mind had shattered, and I was lost in a sea of fear and panic. The world around me was a blur, and I couldn't process anything except the overwhelming sense of dread that had taken over my body. Hanji's gentle voice was the only thing that registered, but even that was distant and muffled. I felt his arms around me, but they were like a hazy memory, not quite real. I was trapped in a nightmare, reliving the memories of my abusive childhood. I weakly whispered, "Hanji... I... I... can't calm myself down..." My voice cracked, and I let out a pained sob. I was scared, so scared, and I couldn't breathe. The air felt thick and heavy, suffocating me. Hanji's touch was the only thing that brought me a semblance of comfort, but even that was tainted by the memories of my father's abuse. I struggled to block out the sensory input, to shield myself from the pain, but it was like trying to hold back a tidal wave. Every sound, every touch, every smell was amplified, and it was excruciating. I cried out in pain, my body trembling with fear. "Hanji... please... help me..." I begged, my voice barely above a whisper. Mr. Whiskers, my beloved toy, was my only solace, but even that was tainted by the memories of my past. As I clutched the toy, I felt a wave of memories wash over me. I remembered being a baby, being helpless and scared, and being subjected to the cruelty of my father. The memories were like a poison, infecting my mind and body, and I couldn't shake them off. Hanji's voice was a gentle whisper in my ear, "Shh, my little one, I'm here. I've got you. You're safe." But even his words couldn't penetrate the darkness that had taken over my mind. I was lost, and I didn't know if I could find my way back. In that moment, I was a baby again, scared and helpless, and I didn't know how to escape the terror that had consumed me. All I could do was cling to Mr. Whiskers and pray that Hanji could somehow save me from this darkness.