"Jealousy Burns"

It was hard to keep these feelings under wraps, extremely hard. Jason started talking to a girl named Sakura, taking her on dates on streams, and I couldn't help but feel a pang of jealousy. I wanted Jason all to myself. I tried to repress these feelings, but it was super hard to do what I had to do - interact with Jason on a day-to-day basis. We were on stream, and Jason was happily chatting with me on a video call. He was reading the live chat, laughing and joking with our audience. I was trying to be my usual self, but it was getting harder by the minute. As we chatted, people started to comment about Sakura. "What's up with Sakura, Jason?" "Are you and Sakura dating?" "Sakura is so lucky to have Jason." I couldn't handle it. I snapped, only ever so slightly, but it was enough. "Dude, Sakura's just a clout chaser," I said, trying to sound nonchalant. Jason's expression changed, and he nervously joked back, "Oh, yeah, well, some of Adapt's exes are definitely clout chasers." The audience laughed, and I forced a smile, trying to play it off. But inside, I was burning with jealousy. I quickly found an excuse to leave, "Guys, I think I'm going to go get some food. You know, keep my energy up." I ended the stream, and Jason gave me a thumbs up. "Later, guys," I said, waving goodbye. As soon as I was off stream, I let out a deep breath. I was relieved to be out of there, but I knew I couldn't keep this up for much longer. My jealousy was leading me to be erratic, and my intentions toward Jason were becoming more lust-filled. I didn't know how much longer I could hide this, especially since my comments were starting to slip. If I accidentally let a lust-filled comment out about Jason's body or his actions, he would just play along and laugh. It only fueled the flame inside me that was slowly consuming me whole. I thought back to all the times Jason had made flirty jokes, and I had brushed it off as just a joke. But now, I wasn't so sure. I was starting to realize that my feelings for Jason went far beyond friendship. As I sat in my room, I couldn't help but think about Jason and Sakura. I was jealous, and it was eating away at me. I knew I had to find a way to deal with these feelings, but I didn't know where to start. All I knew was that I had to be careful, for both Jason's sake and mine. But as I sat there, lost in thought, I couldn't shake the feeling that I was in over my head.